Believing your life is real -

Believing your life is real -

You have a chance to feel that
you deserve a thrill
Is in not that unreal to want
to forget to pay the bills
Reality is as reality does
Once was never really was
Unreal reality is probably what
I live
Most who do not know me
say I am in the clouds
But really my feet are firmly
planted as strong as a tree
in the ground
It is only the aura you see
that does not allow you to
believe
I believe in magic, fantasy
and wasting time
Just as a chance to bring
creativity to mind
I love to choose to be kind
because that is real to me
Believing life is real is a fantasy
Who creates our reality
Is what I see posted freely
I learn so much from that
That I begin to feel free
Freer than the freedom
loving part of me
I am sharing all I have
learned here from the greatest
teachers who have earned
my admiration and loving
dedication
You will see me unrealisticly
As I trust in things not being
exactly how they should be
I get to believe that my
loving feelings are my wonderful
reality
Bringing light into practicality is
how I will honor my gifts
I feel that is the shift
To share some of my truest
gifts
With the quality of my built in
inner ship
You can enjoy the ride
I will enjoy a good cup of tea
tonight
Because my reality feels just
right
Now that I have adjusted my sails
I feel surrender is a cozy delight

April -

The Truth is! Warning - Explicit!!

The Truth is - 

Stay millions of steps ahead

Trust and believe you matter,
if you stay with that, you will
stay with you.

Do not believe it is true, if 
he is not looking at you. 

He thinks I am a fool, but 
only because he thinks I 
believe his bullshit rules.

Runaway everyday, it is a
mental game, come back 
the same, you have not
learned the game. 

Be as beautiful as you can 
be, somewhere deep inside, 
you beautiful deep sea. 

I am awake tonight, thinking
of all that I can be, but what 
does that mean? To let go
of all that is phony. 

Remember the truth, you're 
fucking amazing and he 
can not fucking stand it. 

If he fucks you and tries 
to take your soul, he does
not fucking matter at all. 

When you believe you're 
being victimized, look into
his eyes and be the fucking
prize. 

If I am not happy here, 
I need to leave. And if I am 
not happy still, I need to reach
inside of me. 

April - 

Waiting

 

Smithsonian's National Zoo

Africa Geographic Magazine

Lovely Tarot -

Lovely Tarot - 

Oh my, I love tarot
These little cards
Make our souls grow
Who would've known
So much information
In one little card
Oh how I love these
Little pretty cards
Insight
Wisdom
Intuitive
Magic
Messaging 
Through my soul
I never knew
The truth 
Until you speak 
To me 
Through you

April - 

The Sun -

Fantasy Deck 

Lately the energy feels
like major fire
Firey nature
Soars through the air
Burning up
The past
Leaving smoke
In its wake
We have no fight left
Of what we cannot take
Oh the fire in the air
Brings me further
Past everything I dreamed
Of leaving behind
And into the Sun

April -

Rest -

Rest -

Where can I rest
When I don't feel blessed
Life is relentless
Why
Time after Time
I end up crying
After years of trying
Only to think
I have fifty years
And I'll be dying

April -

Candles to burn -

Candles to burn -

Candles to burn
Something to learn
As I lay here and yearn
For something I thought
I have earned
I feel spirit here by
my side.
My heart is open wide
For miracles and signs
I see flashes of light
and magic moments
Of life -

April Joy

Become untangled -

Become untangled -

Well okay, who are you? Not what you do? But who' are you? I honestly am not going to say I am an expert. Self-hood, self-less, self-undoing, selfish. What is a self? Like when I say that. I think.. I see myself doing what I enjoy. I see the quietude of myself. I see a simpler version of myself. Like at the most mundane, I enjoy yoga and praying, but it could just be a phase. I change alot and I accept that too. At the highest level of me, I enjoy a healthy new challenge and low level risks that push me forward. Notice I said low level, because lol I enjoy being cautious and love feeling safe as well. So all in all, I just thought out loud about my 'self'.
I forget to also mention that after I enjoy a safety zone for too long I enjoy becoming untangled and starting over to pursue my deep down desires.
In pursuit of: Who am I?

April -

A flower for a dancer -

A flower for a dancer -

How beautiful to see. She's fluid and dancing so gloriously. Flowers are a must for the dancer that holds us. We are captivated, but she is captivated most. And to that performance, I say, Let's toast!

April -

Understanding at Starbucks -

Understanding at Starbucks -

So I am sitting here at Starbucks
staring out of the window of course. I live in Washington, so yes it is a rainy fall day. 

In twenty minutes I will be meeting a new family to possibly part time nanny for. I am in a yes phase, but not yes to others. More of a yes to myself. So I realize as I am sitting here that anything less than a yes will suffice.

April -

The bottom of the deck tells a story -

The bottom of the deck tells a story. I do love shuffling cards!! As I am shuffling the cards I do notice the bottom of each deck in each of my hands. The bottom of the deck sort of shows me a little story kinda like a flip book. As I shuffle I get trance like as I watch this story unfold underneath. As I begin to watch expectantly and flip over each bundle of cards I find more and more of a mystery beneath.

April - 

Smokin shoes - Which one?

The light within -

The more light you allow within you, the brighter the world you live in will be -
- Shakti

The Sun -

Your own inner light - Full of life, joy and energy - Bring it out to play - See the light shining on a situation - So that you may see what was in the way - Here comes the sun - 

Tarot Card - Radiant Rider-Waite 

Anchor -

What anchors you to feel each moment fully - Inspiration, people, places, things - There is no wrong answer - Feel now - 

Calling -

Have you found your calling - Are you ready to answer the call - 

Touch -

Art by dampdonuts - deviantart

Forget it -

Forget it - 

Forget what you have
been told, it is getting
old. 
We can just focus our
souls to be in great
alignment on our path. 
Relax to hear your 
messages of life. 
They will in fact lead 
to what could be right. 
While living this path,
I have curiously 
wandered, following and
trusting sign after sign. 
We are here to share 
the beautiful and not so
beautiful parts of 
ourselves. 
In living our lives, we 
have choices to make. 
We can skate down a path,
learn from it, wake from it,
let life rip us apart, and 
forget it all. Let the chips 
fall, surrender it all. 
Come back, stand tall, 
remember the good, respect 
the bad that you thought 
you had because we have
been taught to focus on bad. 
No, glorious warrior
you see
you are not alone, it is you
and me. 

April -